Tears have been shed

I’m finding my biggest challenge is still preparedness. It is so much harder to try and eat wheatless when you have to scavenge. I have made my mother’s muesli for breakfast, covering my carbs, a little fruit and dairy. I’ve been adding some hardboiled eggs to get my protein fix.

The Wheat Belly suggests that wheat stimulates the appetite and makes you eat more. I have found that since I stopped eating wheat I don’t snack as much. Admittedly I’m eating a big breakfast, but I find that I go for more than 4 hours before I want to eat again. I don’t know how much of that is coincidence and how much is my body adjusting.

I don’t really eat a lot of wheat as a matter of course, at least not the things that I would think of as wheat, like bread, pasta or pastries. I think I get more accidental wheat that anything else. About a week before this challenge started, I had a small pasta salad for lunch. While in class, about 30 mins later, I was starting to pass out. Now I’ve been sleepy in class before, but never have I almost fallen asleep while writing, like mid-sentence and the pen slid off the page. Nothing I did seemed to make a difference. It’s a pity because it’s a class I want/need to pay attention in. That decided me. I want no more wheat in my diet! (Intellectually at least)

I think I’ve noticed some withdrawal symptoms. It’s weird to feel so out of whack and realize that the only thing that I’ve changed in my wheat intake. I went shopping at Superstore for groceries for the week. I want to like Superstore, but every time I’m in there I feel murderous rage. It’s always so busy and filled with idiots. I saw a 40 something guy scream at a young mother and her two kids to “get the f—k out of my way!” Not to be left out I got told the same thing, but I was already out of the way hiding behind a post. This dude was scary.

So a shitty experience, but whatever. I got my shopping done and made it out to my car without being sworn at again. Pack the groceries in and started crying. I was just so frustrated and tired. Normally that wouldn’t have started me crying though. Still I chalked it up to the magic of Superstore and moved on. Got home and ended up crying twice more. Now I don’t really cry that much, and certainly not over a grocery shop no matter how stressful it is. I think the no wheat has some effect on my hormones or something. Thankfully that seems to have gone away.

I must say that while I don’t eat a lot of bread watching everyone come around my store all day with fresh baking was hard. I’m picturing hot, fresh bread all the time. Dammit